urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx pulmonaryx pulmonaryx 2007-01-31T07:20:53Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:15614 2007-01-31T07:20:53Z 2007-01-31T07:20:53Z no more maths ever again, calling blake at work, miami ink at 630 am, fighting with parents since forever, trying to get my head around plans for this time next year(moving out), art is awesome, trying to prove myself. NO MORE MATHS.<br />aircon in thewhole house, by myself.<br />sold the house btw. 980 000. wow. we could almost be millionaires. mad shit<br />still no computer, byebye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:15282 2007-01-25T01:26:25Z 2007-01-25T01:26:25Z <b><font size="4" face="Geneva"><span xsscleaned="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: Geneva; font-weight: bold;">I'm going to see Fall Out Boy.<br />Saturday 10th March Convention Centre <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Brisbane<br /><br /><br />Yay for Blake buying the tickets!<br />Ps. Claire B is rad because she and I used to listen to them back in the day. And you did not.<br />I am a music snob. That is all :D</st1:place></st1:city></span></font></b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:14904 2007-01-20T13:52:47Z 2007-01-20T13:52:47Z i dunno, remember when we almost sold our house? well its happened again. and it might happen. were even having a garage sale. dont come haha.<br />life= bejeweled. the game. you know, where you swap jems around to make groups of 3 or more? yeah.<br />worked 2-10 today. deathhhhhhh. <br />this week will be<br />sunday- church and officeworks (haha shut up fool) then blake is coming over after hes finished work :D<br />(i hate you if youre going to bdo. not really. im so not in the mood, just muse would be nice)<br />mon- dunno yet<br />tuesday- hanging out with sarah and blake, going to see my chem. <br />wednesday- maybe going to the coast again<br />thursday- work 7-11am, then hanging with siobhanyy<br />friday-(australia day)- breakfast with penny etc then work 11-4 (100 bucks for 5 hrs work) then going to blakes for a piss up i gather? dunno yet. but siobhans coming as well<br />sat- come home form blakes, garage sale, bald hills gig (a true terrors last gig wtf)<br />sunday- resting, come home from siobs, work 7-10 that night i think<br /><br />im sure youre all very interested. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:14641 2007-01-15T03:07:33Z 2007-01-15T03:07:33Z <center><br /><a href="http://www.myspace.com/124902399">LT PHOTOGRAPHY<br><br><br />CLICK FOR MORE<br><br><br /><img src="http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f50/lucy_art/CopyofP1030010.jpg"><br><br><br /><img src="http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f50/lucy_art/COPY.jpg"></a><br /><br />featuring I KILLED THE PROM QUEEN, PENNYLAYNE, MISERY SIGNALS, CARPATHIAN, THE GETAWAY PLAN AND MORE.</center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:14398 2007-01-03T12:56:37Z 2007-01-03T12:56:37Z Well since i have no updated in a million years and im sure all you school people are dying to hear about how my life is going( hahaha cough cough) basically life= my camera. its my baby and i love it. ive got about 3 gigs coming up where i can take photos at them. haha im already planning to buy my digi slr in about 3 months. its going to be beautiful. i love tilly! she is the best friend i could have ever asked for and she has exceeded all expectations i ever had of a true friend (bar siobhan ha).<br />yeah siobhan is always going to be close to my heart its so great that fate made us cousins but chance made us great friends. wooo blood relative! blakey is so lovely and i love spending time with him and i love how he is with me and he makes me laugh and so so happy.... yeah<br />i had the best nye, it was me blake, til and siobhan and we just chilled at mine and then watched the fireworks from just up the road from my house (and my house as well, it has sweet city views)<br />anwaysy ive applied at the shop ICE (ahah i know me working there would be hilarious) and i just hope i get that job because working at maccas is death. deaaathhh by salt and grease and oil. too bad the people there are generally great :( ill miss em<br />anwyays i gtg sleep time<br /><br />byebye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:14100 2006-12-20T10:16:27Z 2006-12-20T10:16:27Z caaaaaaartelll! <a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="jarryd biddle is the funniest person i have ever met">i kid you not<br /><br />hahaha bored now so quiz<br />i kid you not<br /><br />hahaha bored now so quiz<br /><br /><br />hair color:<br />[ ] Natural Blonde $50<br />[ ] Highlighted Blonde $45<br />[ ] Brunette $40<br />[ ] Dark $40<br />[x] Redhead $45 <b>YES I HAVE RED HAIR NOW</b><br />[ ] Brown $40<br />[ ] Other $15<br /><br /><br />Total: $45<br /><br />Eye Color:<br />[ ] Blue $25<br />[ ] Green $30<br />[ ] Brown $20<br />[ ] Gray $15<br />[x] Hazel $20<br />[ ] Other $10<br /><br />Total So Far: $65<br /><br />Height:<br />[ ] Under 5' $20<br />[x] 5'1" - 6' $30<br />[ ] Over 6' $35<br /><br />Total So Far: $95<br /><br /><br />Age:<br />[ ] 13 and under $10<br />[x] 14-17 $20<br />[ ]18-20 $20<br />[ ] 20-30 $25<br />[ ] 30-40 $15<br />[ ] Over 40 $10<br /><br /><br />Total So Far: $115<br /><br />Education:<br />[ ] Elementary School $1<br />[ ] Middle School (yr 7-9) $5<br />[ ] Still in Middle School $20<br />[ ] Quit high school $0<br />[x] Still in high school (yr 10-12) $10<br />[ ] GED $10<br />[ ] High School Grad $50<br />[ ] In College $75<br />[ ] 2 year degree $85<br />[ ] 4 year degree $100<br />[ ] Higher degree $125<br /><br />Total So Far: $125<br /><br />Birth Order:<br />[ ] Only child $30<br />[ ] First born $15<br />[ ] Last born $40<br />[ ] Middle child $30<br />[x] Other $166 <b>FIRST BORN TO MY PARENTS, BUT OLDEST CHILD TO 2 HALF SISTERS</b><br /><br />Total So Far: $291<br /><br />Smoke Cigarettes?<br />[ ] Yes $50<br />[x] No $20<br />[] Quit $5<br /><br />Total So Far: $311<br /><br />Drink?<br />[ ] Never $35<br />[ ] 1-5 drinks per month $25<br />[ ] 6-10 drinks per month $20<br />[x] 11+ drinks per month $45<br />[ ] Quit $ 15<br />[ ] not much..sometimes $26<br /><br /><br />Total So Far: $356<br /><br />Vision?<br />[ ] No correction $30<br />[x] Glasses $10<br />[ ] Contacts $15<br />[ ] Surgical correction $20<br /><br />Total So Far: $366<br /><br />Teeth?<br />[x] Straight/White $50<br />[ ] Straight/off-white$40<br />[ ] Not-so-straight/White $40<br />[ ] Crooked/Yellow $5<br /><br />Total So Far: $416<br /><br />Car Color:<br />[ ] Red $50<br />[ ] Blue $30<br />[ ] Green $30<br />[ ] Silver $45<br />[ ] White $20<br />[x] Black $25 MY PARENTS CAR<br />[ ] Other $20<br /><br />Total So Far: $436<br /><br />Shoe Size:<br /><br />[ ] below 13 $60<br />[ ] 13/1 [in kids] $50<br />[ ] 2/3/4 $40<br />[ ] 5/6 $20<br />[x] 7/8 $30<br />[ ] 9+ $30<br /><br />Total So Far: $466<br /><br />Room Color:<br />[ ] White $0<br />[ ] Cream $3<br />[ ] Black $5<br />[x] Purple $10<br />[ ] Red $15<br />[ ] Blue $20<br />[ ] Orange $25<br />[ ] Pink $35<br />[ ] Yellow $40<br />[ ] Other $15<br /><br />Total So Far: $476<br /><br />multiply it by 2 <br /><br />You are worth: $952<br /></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:13877 2006-12-07T15:37:02Z 2006-12-07T15:37:02Z a few things, that are really fricken cool;<br /><br />im getting paid like. <i>150 bucks next week</i><br />which means my camera is almost paid off.<br /><br /><font size="3">IM ON FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES MYSPACE</font>. holy fuck!<br /><font size="2">http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&amp;friendID=2601326&amp;imageID=1521274537&amp;MyToken=2ee2526c-e16a-46b4-932f-2212e130ac16<br /><br /><b>HOW COOL IS THAT</b><br />fhsdlkjdk. go look at it. im so fricken weird lookin hahah.<br /><br />nathan and i are going to make "special sandwiches" on saturdday im not allowed to say antying else hahah <br /><br /><u>the cartel cover of "wonderwall" is better than the oasis version. so fricken download it</u><br /><br />blake gives me his hoodie when i complain its cold. its so comfy and comforting. i love it!<br /><br />im so happy right now</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:13809 2006-12-07T00:25:10Z 2006-12-07T00:25:10Z so so tired. so so bored!<br />best part of believe is the lie<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="blah blah">Bedroom Survey<br /><br /> Do you have the following in your bedroom:<br /> <br /> Condom: yep<br /> Cell phone: yep.<br /> Chair/stool: yep.<br /> Book shelf: kind of... its like shelves. with alot of books on them.... <br /> Dresser: yep<br /> Bong: nope<br /> Computer/laptop: laptop<br /> Bean bag: nope<br /> Pictures: alot... my walls are covered in them...<br /> Mirror: yes but it doesn work cause it has lipstick on it haha<br /> Bed: yes duh<br /> Plastic Giraffe: probably.. haha<br /> Surfboard: nope<br /> Smoke detector: no its outside my room<br /> Piano/keyboard/Guitar/bass/drums: nah thats outside too<br /> Locking door: nope<br /> Bottle of water: empty ones<br /> Blacklight: nah<br /> medals/ribbons: yes<br /> Sports equipment: umm... a pogo stick.. please dont laugh...<br /> CD: (s) alot , alot...<br /> Flag: a HIM flag<br /> Stop sign/any sign:i did... i dunno where they went : |<br /> Caution tape: na<br /> Paintball/Airsoft gun: i wish<br /> Real Gun: no i wish<br /> Cigarettes: i think so ! i just dont know where haha<br /> Candle: ummm yes<br /> Books: alot.<br /> Nintendo: im a playstaion girl!<br /> PS2: its outside<br /> Xbox: nope<br /> Stereo: yes<br /> Television: did...<br /> Lighter: probably<br /> Gum: nope.<br /> How many windows do you have in ur room? none. i have french doors..<br /> What is the colour of your walls? purple<br /> Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet? carpet<br /> Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom?both<br /> What color is your bed sheet? the sheets are blue, the cover is like white/grey<br /> What's on your walls? alot of shit. seriously my room is like chaos...<br /> Has the opposite sex been in your room before? haha yes<br /> Has the opposite sex been on your bed before? um yes<br /></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:13376 2006-12-03T12:18:47Z 2006-12-03T12:18:47Z the juliana theory yay thanks for nice comments, "friends of lj"<br />hahaha im so tired.<br />i like finding letters in books from this certain someone. <br />i need 150 more dollars. if anyone wants to give me an xmas present. its for my camera. ahha shit.<br />dont worry. ill find the money. maybe?! dfhkljs. i hope so.<br />love me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:13145 2006-12-02T05:44:35Z 2006-12-02T05:44:35Z i love being me.<br />mainly because if i wasnt me, i would have had the experiences like i have had over the last few days.<br />ie. ordering in my camera<br />and oh.<br />i went to this gig on fridya night with tily<br />we were talking to this band wendy icon backstage, they are like 80s madcore with bleached hair and cutoff jeans and nike basketball shoes oh how i love them so. anyways next time they come up(theyre from adelaide) theyre giving me a media pass. to take photos for them. fhdslkj. we were sitting backstage eating jelly crystals and blowing bubbles with them<br />and yeah im happy also because troy (from the amity affliction) said that if they come back (theyre in debt atm) i can get a media pass for their gigs, as well as ryan from pennylayne haha what fucking madcunts<br />and for boys of summer which is prom queen, the getaway plan, spitalfield, misery signals, some others i cant remember haha <br />WELL ANYWYAS<br />i msgd some of hte bands and spitalfield said that i could take photos for them<br />fuck yes. my life is almost complete. i just need 150 more dollars for my camera. hfsdjlk<br />150 bucks before dec. 25. i can do it!<br /><br />this is my life right now urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:12847 2006-11-22T11:36:27Z 2006-11-22T11:36:27Z never, ever let your boyfriend who has been at schoolies lie in your bed.<br />because<br />THERE WILL BE SAND urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:12603 2006-11-22T08:51:16Z 2006-11-22T08:51:16Z Best, Worst, Last, Today, Tomorrow, Favorites, Currently, and True & False.<br /><br />Best<br />1. Male Friend: thats really hard, i gues blake but nathan is up there too<br />2. Female friend: siobhan<br />3. Vacation: that one time when i went away to england. &lt;3<br />4. Memory: different kind of happiness<br /><br />Worst<br />1. Time of day: before bed time cause im always tired but cant sleep<br />2. Day of the week: mondays usually<br />3. Food: pork pork pork pork ewww<br />4. Memory: dont wanna go there thanks there are too many haha<br /><br />Last<br />1. Person you saw: sista<br />2. Talked to on the phone: shob :)<br />3. Text: heppell haha <br />4. Commented over myspace: umm. tilly<br /><br />Today<br />1. What are you doing right now? chattin <br />2. Wearing? clothes<br />3. Better than yesterday? YES<br />4. Did you see the person you like? yep<br />5. What's the weather? hot<br /><br />Tomorrow<br />1. Is: THURSDAY!<br />2. Plans: sleep, going to from autumn to ashes. seeing blake.<br />3. Dislikes about tomorrow: nothing really<br /><br />Favorite<br />1. Number: nil<br />2. Song this week: playing for keeps- matchbook romance<br />3. Season: Winter<br />5. Cartoon: angry beavers<br /><br />Currently<br />1. Missing: my head hahaha<br />2. Mood: lethargic<br />3. Wanting: him<br />4. Listening to: matchbook romance<br /><br />True or False<br />I am a morning person: F<br />I am an only child: F<br />I am currently in my pj's: T hahah @ 6pm<br />I am currently suffering from a broken heart: F<br />I can be paranoid at times: T<br />I currently regret something that I have done: T<br />I curse frequently: T<br />I curse when I'm mad: T<br />I enjoy country music: T hahahahahahhaha<br />I enjoy hip hop: T hahahah waht up GANGSTA<br />I enjoy techno/trance:T<br />I enjoy talking on the phone: T<br />I have a hidden talent: T<br />I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: T<br />I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy/girl: only a few times<br />I have all my grandparents: F<br />I have at least one brother and/or sister: T<br />I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: T<br />I have changed a diaper: T fucking ew<br />I have changed a lot over the past year: TRUE<br />I have done something illegal: TRUE<br />I have had major/minor surgery: ahuh<br />I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months: T<br />I have had the cops called on me: TRUE urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:12366 2006-11-20T14:24:50Z 2006-11-20T14:24:50Z too much, too many, too far.<br />i wish i was drunk <br />nothing is perfect but i never expected it to be.<br />haha life is sweet. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:12051 2006-11-18T11:03:22Z 2006-11-18T11:03:22Z ..for my everything urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:11854 2006-11-13T14:10:11Z 2006-11-14T07:55:34Z living chivalry THE BEST THING EVER (not really but still)<br /><a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="this is really good">Take a photo of:<br /><br />1. The computer you are currently using - take the photo so that you can see the space around it as well<br /><img width="448" height="334" src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b162/lucy_paperclip/PB140275.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br />2. What you see when you look to your right<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b162/lucy_paperclip/PB140277.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br />3. What you see when you look to your left<br /><br />(note mcr and fata tickets haha.)<br /><br /><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b162/lucy_paperclip/PB140278.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br /><br />4. Your favourite part of the room you are in<br /><br />(my babies hahaha)<br /><br /><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b162/lucy_paperclip/PB140279.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br />5. Something that symbolises who you are<br /><br /><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b162/lucy_paperclip/PB140280.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br />6. Something that symbolises who you want to be<br /><br /><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b162/lucy_paperclip/PB140284.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br /></div><br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:11682 2006-11-08T06:15:13Z 2006-11-08T06:15:13Z claire lines<br />thank you for being so great to me. thanks for talking to me. i have made my own mind up about you not based on other people's bitching or talk (it seems to be the new in thing now?) and i think you are so great. thanks for always listening. thanks for our talks in maths. hahaha maths. dear gosh our class is great. anyways. thanks man. i hope that things work out for you. &lt;3<br /><br />now listen to this everyone:<br /><br /><b>Ephesians 2:1<br />"You went along with the crowd and were just like all the others, full of sin, obeying Satan, the might prince of the power of the air, who is at work right now in the hearts of those who are against the Lord. All of us used to be just as they are, our lives expressing the evil within us, doing every wicked thing our passions or our evil thoughts might lead us into, We started out bad, being born with evil natures, and were under God's anger just like everyone else.<br />BUT God is so rich in mercy; he loved us so much that even though we were spiritually dead and doomed by our sins, HE GAVE US BACK OUR LIVES AGAIN when he raised Christ from the dead- ONLY BY HIS UNDESERVED FAVOUR HAVE WE EVER BEEN SAVED."</b><br /><br />John 3:16 FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD SO MUCH THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON SO THAT ANYONE WHO BELIEVE IN HIM SHALL NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE. <br />God did not send His Son into the world to condemn it, but to save it.<br /><br />romans 3:21 "but now God has shown us a different way to heaven- not by being good enough and trying to keep His laws, but by a new way.. now God says He will accept us and acquit us- declare us as "not guilty" - if we trust Jesus to take away our sins. And we can all be saved in this same way, by coming to christ no matter who we are or what we have been like."<br /><br />SALVATION IS NOT A REWARD FOR THE GOOD WE HAVE DONE SO NONE OF US CAN TAKE ANY CREDIT FOR IT. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:11464 2006-11-06T22:15:48Z 2006-11-06T22:15:48Z atreyu Does anyone have any tips, at all, for getting to sleep and retaining it? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:11263 2006-11-02T12:39:50Z 2006-11-02T12:39:50Z I'm going to edit them. and tell you who they are, and im adding in one more.<br /><br /><b>1. SIOBHAN</b><br />You're everything I wish I was. You're strength amazes me in every single way. You have been the hands holding me up, since forever. Our bond, is not just blood. Its indescribable. You know that everytime I say "I love you" I honestly mean it. I can scream it, I can get anyone to believe it. I'd jump off cliffs for you. You know I think you're the most amazing person in the whole world. You're the light in my eyes. You are my angel. I wish I could've told you that I'm yours to hold when you needed it most. You're my priority. You are my life. You're my past, my present and my future, without any doubt. Nothing can take you away from me. These aren't just words. These are promises that I haven't yet had the opportunity to fufil. I wish I could tell you this everyday. But I know you understand.<br /><b><br />2. MATHILDE</b><br />A part of me will always love you. It's always on my mind. How I'm not happy feeling like I mean nothing at all to you now that you have re-made yourself. But if it's what you want then I love you enough to let you go on with your own life without me by your side anymore. I may be too easily broken by you. Do you even love me? We went through so much together. I held you. I've always just wanted you to be happy. Don't you want me to be happy? What do you want? I'm so upset. I feel so let down. Fuck you confuse me. I'm so freaking unbelievably upset right now. I WANT YOU TO LIVE UP TO EVERY SINGLE EXPECTATION BUT SOMETIMES YOU CANT. <br /><br /><b>3. BLAKE</b><br />It happened fast. Where do I begin, with you? You've changed my perspective on alot of things. That's just the beginning. YOU MAKE ME SMILE Genuine happiness, something for you to be proud of. I feel safe when you hold me. You're amazing. There's something about you. I want to know. You're confusing. You're unpredictable. You care about "the little things" but you wont lose face. YOU SEND ME LETTERS. You love honestly. YOU CARE FOR ME, and YOU KNOW THAT I CARE FOR YOU TOO AND YOU WONT EVER DOUBT THAT. I think of you always. No one understands this. Maybe no one ever will.... The thing that scares me the most is that when I look into your eyes I actually see myself. That never happens with anyone. Or I've never noticed it with anyone.<br /><br /><b>4. MY DAD</b><br />I wish you would honestly care. I wish that you would call me. I wish you cared. I wish I didn't love you. You've proven to me that you're not any hero, that parents can let you down. I don't want you to come back into my life, make all these stupid fucking promises again and then just let me down. I'm wary of trusting you. <br /><b><br />5. MY MUM</b><br />I wish I could be what you always wanted me to be. I'm sorry. This isn't like normal "oh i wish my parents were proud of me". I'm not even joking. So fuck you, because this is deeper than what you ever thought it was. I think the only person who KIND OF understands at the least is Siobhan.<br /><br /><b>6. BARTON</b><br /> Thank you for listening to me. For being a good friend, keeping promises, making me step back and think about it for a second. Thank you for making me smile. You are an amazing person and I know that there's something good in store for you. It doesn't matter what's "right" or "wrong", because to me, there isn't. You gotta be patient. There's something good at the end of the tunnel for you. I love you.<br /><br /><b>7. JACOB</b><br />I am stronger now, without you. I hate you SO MUCH for what you did to me, but thanks for making me realise alot of stuff. You are nothing to me. Nothing. I never loved you. I was infatuated with the idea of someone liking me for who I was. I know now that I'm perfect as who I am.<br /><br /><b>8. JOSH</b><br /> I am so, so, so, so sorry. There's nothing else to it. I didn't want it to be this way. I'm glad we can still be friends. Fuck I'm so sorry. <br /><b><br />9. CLAIRE</b><br />I fucking miss you, and the old times with you. Why did you leave me. I thought you would come back...<br /><br /><b>10. MITCH</b><br />You, are an idiot. YOURE SO FUCKING YOUNG WHAT YOURE LIKE 15 AND YOU HAVE A FUCKING STRAIGHT EDGE TATTOO.<br />IM GONNA LAUGH AT YOU BECAUSE YOURE STUCK WITH THAT SHIT AND I HATE YOU FOR GOING BACK ON ALL OUR PROMISES. FUCK YOU <br /><br /><b>11. NATHAN</b><br />You are seriously, my other half. I love that we're so similar, but still different. I love work with you. I love it when you come over and we be dickheads on the bus. I love how we can finish eachothers sentances, or talk about shit and we havent been close for very long at all, and it's still all comfortable and good. I love that you make me laugh and that you APPRECIATE all the things like hugs and text messages and we are still just such good friends. I love that you know exactly what I want, and i know what you want. I love that you're such a big part of my life now.<br />I mean, were born 1 year and 3 days apart, we both have these stupid things in our pasts, we both have 2 middle names, you live in number 22 and i live in number 11. We both work at maccas and we both act like complete fools. We both can't sleep and we both NEVER have credit. Both of our parents are split up. I can go on... . <br />I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE IVE KNOWN YOU FOREVER<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:10840 2006-11-02T12:21:53Z 2006-11-02T12:21:53Z okay so i swear to God, this whole thing about the "ten people" is driving me crazy. im so paranoid. because people have been really bitchy in theirs and ARGH i know its so petty. but im going insane.<br />i just wanna know what people think of me... whhhhhhhhhyyy do we hide behind our fucking computer screens ARGH WHYYY .<br />i mean my friend elise did one as well and i was really scared, because i thhought i was her friend but she wrote all this stuff and it could apply to me and i just think "why cant you tell me this!?!" but it could NOT be me<br />hgfksjlka<br /><br />i dont know.<br /><br />art=my life.<br /><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=124902399&MyToken=0daa46a0-4e0f-43c8-b830-3c2868194ff5">http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=124902399&MyToken=0daa46a0-4e0f-43c8-b830-3c2868194ff5</a><br /><br />if you have myspace add my art myspace.<br />kthankx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:10522 2006-10-30T13:46:40Z 2006-10-30T13:46:40Z THIS WAS REALLY HARD TO WRITE FOR ME. <br /><br />I bet you'll never even know...<br /><br />TRY THIS: Write ten statements about ten different people without saying who each statement is written about. They can either be things you wish that you could say, things you wish that you would have said, or things that you would never say.<br /><br />1. You're everything I wish I was. You're strength amazes me in every single way. You have been the hands holding me up, since forever. Our bond, is not just blood. Its indescribable. You know that everytime I say "I love you" I honestly mean it. I can scream it, I can get anyone to believe it. I'd jump off cliffs for you. You know I think you're the most amazing person in the whole world. You're the light in my eyes. You are my angel. I wish I could've told you that I'm yours to hold when you needed it most. You're my priority. You are my life. You're my past, my present and my future, without any doubt. Nothing can take you away from me. These aren't just words. These are promises that I haven't yet had the opportunity to fufil. I wish I could tell you this everyday. But I know you understand.<br /><br />2. A part of me will always love you. It's always on my mind. How I'm not happy feeling like I mean nothing at all to you now that you have re-made yourself. But if it's what you want then I love you enough to let you go on with your own life without me by your side anymore. I may be too easily broken by you. Do you even love me? We went through so much together. I held you. I've always just wanted you to be happy. Don't you want me to be happy? What do you want? I'm so upset. I feel so let down.<br /><br />3. It happens fast. Where do I begin, with you? You've changed my perspective on alot of things. That's just the beginning. You, my dear, make me smile. Genuine happiness, something for you to be proud of. I feel safe when you hold me. You're amazing. There's something about you. I want to know. You're confusing. You're unpredictable. I think of you always. No one understands this. Maybe no one ever will....<br /><br />4. I wish you would honestly care. I wish that you would call me. I wish you cared. I wish I didn't love you. You've proven to me that you're not any hero, that parents can let you down.<br /><br />5. I wish I could be what you always wanted me to be. I'm sorry.<br /><br />6. Thank you for listening to me. For being a good friend, keeping promises, making me step back and think about it for a second. Thank you for making me smile. You are an amazing person and I know that there's something good in store for you. It doesn't matter what's "right" or "wrong", because to me, there isn't. You gotta be patient. There's something good at the end of the tunnel for you. I love you.<br /><br />7. I am stronger now, without you. I hate you for what you did to me, but thanks for making me realise alot of stuff. You are nothing to me. Nothing. I never loved you. I was infatuated with the idea of someone liking me for who I was. I know now that I'm perfect as who I am.<br /><br />8. I am so, so, so, so sorry. There's nothing else to it. I didn't want it to be this way. I'm glad we can still be friends.<br /><br />9. I fucking miss you, and the old times with you.<br /><br />10. You, are an idiot. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:10263 2006-10-28T13:38:49Z 2006-10-28T13:38:49Z <a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="LUCY!"><font size="2">Known as: LUCIZZLE<br /> Born: 25/9<br /> Hair color: brown and blonde?<br /> eye: blah hazel?<br /> <br /> <br /> SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER<br /> <br /> Fallen off the bed?: AHAHHAHA YES<br /> Broken someone else's heart?: yes eep<br /> Had your heart broken?: not properly thank god<br /> Had a dream come true?: yepppppp<br /> <br /> <br /> SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...<br /> <br /> Wearing: CANTOSSSSSS<br /> Listening to: carpathian (hardcore yes).<br /> Located: my room in my house<br /> Chatting with: drunken blake :D<br /> Should REALLY be: sleeping... nothing...<br /> <br /> SECTION 4 - DO YOU...<br /> <br /> Have any piercings: ears, belly<br /> Drive: one day<br /> Drink: GET CRUNK MO'FUCKERRRRRRRRR<br /> Have a cell phone: yah<br /> <br /> SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU...<br /> <br /> Hugged: mummyyyyy<br /> IMed: blakeeeeeeeeee<br /> Talked with on the phone:blake just before hahaha<br /> Text: um mummy!<br /> <br /> SECTION 6 - PERSONAL...<br /> <br /> What do you want to be when you grow up? LUCIZZLE TO THE MANIZZLE (but a married version)<br /> What comes first in your life? family, friends<br /> What do you usually think about before you go to bed? SLEEP<br /> <br /> SECTION 7- FAVORITES<br /> <br /> Show: meh?<br /> Store: asian<br /> Food: blakes arm<br /> Color: white<br /> <br /> SECTION 8 - DO YOU...<br /> <br /> Like to give hugs: yep<br /> Like to walk in the rain: yeah it's nice.<br /> Prefer black or blue: depends on what<br /> Sleep on your side: i sleep all over the joint<br /> Have stuffed animals: yes<br /> <br /> SECTION 9- THIS OR THAT...(pick)<br /> <br /> Pierced nose or tongue: nose<br /> MTV or BET: ewwww<br /> 7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek: double ew<br /> Chocolate or flowers: flowers!!!<br /> Color or black-and-white photos: both. <br /> Stay up late or sleep in: i never sleep in and im always up late<br /> Hot or cold: depends on what we are actually talking about here<br /> Sun or moon: NIGHT IS BETTERRR<br /> Left or Right: im left handed<br /> 10 Acquaintances or one best friend: one best friend!!<br /> Spring or Fall: spring (my birthday)<br /> Happy or sad: HAPPY<br /> Wonder or amazement: both at the same time.<br /> <br /> SECTION 10: FIRSTS.<br /> <br /> First Screen Name: no friggen idea<br /> First self purchased CD: naaaaahm. the offspring?<br /> First pet: tilly the dog.<br /> First piercing/tattoo: ears<br /> <br /> SECTION 11: LASTS.<br /> <br /> Last GOOD cry: tonight was OKAY i guess <br /> Last phone call: before blake called me<br /> Last time showered: like 830pm<br /> <br /> SECTION 12: CURRENT.<br /> <br /> Current mood: just happy :D<br /> Current food: CHOCOLATE i could eat but im full<br /> Current hair: ahah its a mess<br /> Current annoyance(s): just wanna be with people <br /> <br /> SECTION 13: WHO LAST...<br /> <br /> 1. Made you smile: nahmmm blake :D<br /> 2. Saw you cry? mum<br /> 3. Did you kiss: b.h.<br /> <br /> SECTION 14: WOULD YOU RATHER..<br /> <br /> 1. Be serious or be funny? BOTH YOU DUMB CUNT<br /> 2. Drink whole or skim milk? WHOLE<br /> 3. Spend time with your parents or enemies? PARENTS DUHH<br /> <br /> SECTION 15: DO YOU PREFER...<br /> <br /> 1. Do you prefer gray or black? MEH<br /> 2. Lust or love? LOVE<br /> 3. Sunrise or sunset? none!<br /> 4. M&amp;M's or skittles? M&amp;MS.<br /> <br /> SECTION 16: ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...<br /> <br /> 1. Do you like someone? WELL DUHHHH YOU FRIGGEN RETARD<br /> 2. Do you believe in love at first sight? ONLY IN MOVIESSSSSSSSS<br /></font></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:10235 2006-10-24T21:34:03Z 2006-10-24T21:34:03Z ya... theres not much to say right now... we were going to be moving... but we arent... thank god...<br />but we might be? someones coming to look at the house now... arghhhhhhh parents confuseee me..<br /><br />yeah blakes pretty awesome :)<br />ok im doneeeeeeeeeeee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:9923 2006-10-21T03:51:04Z 2006-10-21T03:51:04Z i adore being adored by him.<br />i adore adoring him <br /><br />life is a struggle, but hes worth it all.<br />he continually amazes me with everything he does. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:9574 2006-10-17T21:18:44Z 2006-10-17T21:18:44Z yeah im moving to spring hill in a month.<br />sold our house for nearly a mil okay<br /><br /><br />pretty much so much shit has happened since holidays went back but meh<br />taste of chaos sunday<br />i was chillin pretty much the whole time<br />it was mad fun<br />blake was protecting me from all the big scary beefy men <br />one eventually hit me, it hurt alot : (<br /><br />so yeah, thursday = best.<br />underoath = pretty friggen good<br />senses fail = REALLY good <br />tbs = kinda staged but still funny and cute<br />anti flag= i walked out on them.<br />hahahahha<br /><br />this weekend is gonna be lush<br />friday night = going to blakes art award thingy<br />saturday= looking at the new place in spring hill, &amp; movies <br />sunday= dunno<br />monday = fucked if i know but i want to get a new fish<br /><br />also some stuff to look forward to for me <br />will&nbsp; be gigs <br />november 3rd (prom queen)<br />november 23rd (from autumn to ashes/the getaway plan)<br /><br />i also think theres a five for five at eagleby that blakes organising that ill go to.<br />as for bdo, i dont know yet<br />and mcr are playing a show at the tivoli, i really wanna goooooo<br />:D<br /><br />thats allllllllll urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pulmonaryx:9395 2006-10-05T19:52:55Z 2006-10-05T19:52:55Z does everyone else agree that davey from afi looks heaps tired now?<br />especially in the love like winter clip.